Past.

Why is it that when we're sick we tend to think about the past? I mean.... ok maybe it's just me. See thing is, I should be worried about what I've missed in class, what opportunities I'll be missing because I can't go out.(13th & 14th is fundraising day but i can't perform on stage with my condition D=) also I should be worried about the upcoming quizzes and my ptptn and presentations but no..... I'm stuck here with all the time in the world thinking about him.

Shit. I know I've been fine for some time now given uni and all, but now that my mind is left free to wonder, it decides to open almost sealed doors. Scumbag brain........

For some reason, you're always there on my mind! Come to think of it..... Why? I still can't figure it out you know, what is it about you that I miss so much? Is it the fact that you were once my best friend? Or is it because I simply miss your company? Or is it because I felt played when you decided to choose someone else? I still ask so many questions, when will I let them go? Sigh...... Doesn't matter, it still falls down to the same fact.

I lost, I ruined everything between us, and you? I think you don't care anymore, or maybe you never did.

Ps - being sick makes you depressed as hell!

I think I know the ceiling better now

Sick Days & Mad Nights.

Woke up in intervals of 15 to 20 to 30 minutes up till 5.30am last night. My body wants to sleep but somehow the minute i get into a deep sleep, one part of my body would send a sharp pain up my spine and there went my sleep. Either that or it was too hot or too cold. And it'd take me a hell of a long time of rolling around and changing positions to get into a comfortable spot which lasts for 30 minutes max.

Another asshole of a thing was some fucking scumbag mosquito decided to visit around 4am ish. And that was when I almost made it into a long deep sleep. Bit me on the hand... Fine I was too tired to bother. BUT THEN!!!! It decided to swirl around my ears making that fucking annoying sound! And I snapped! Sprayed my room with half a can of mosquito repellent while cursing the whole mosquito race. Only after that did I manage to sleep in peace! Gosh! Please be over soon...

Woke up feeling shittier than the day before. The pain I felt brought me to tears. Couldn't stop myself from crying the whole morning. My body hurts when I move and it hurts when I am standing still. I have to think twice before I sit down on the freaking toilet bowl! I don't know what to do with my body. Everything I do hurts. My throat hurts as well. And it seems I will not be graced with sleep. D'= help me....

Ps - even 9gag cant help sooth the pain

Save Me.

Just when I thought having a fever was bad..... Sigh..... I hope this all blows over in a week. God i feel like crap now.

On a side note :
I'm technically not religious but every time I get sick, I have this idea that I did something very very wrong and god's just kinda giving a small dose of hell to me. They say time spent being sick is time that should be spent on repenting sins. Silly, I know! But that's just how things are in my head.

Ps - my whole body is in ultra annoying pain. Somebody save me....

Another Skidoodle =D

Feverish....

Think I'm coming down with a fever..... Gosh I don't like this feeling. )=

Kills Self Doodle in english class