Slow.

Slow connection? WELL FU BROADBAND! yeah this internet thingy is so getting on my nerves.Ah well... Good night! =)

Temporary?

What lasts forever?
Words?
Strength?
Emotions?
Memories?
Nothing does.
Not to me at least.
Everything has an expiry date that we can't see stamped upon it.
Because it's invisible,
Because i forget it's there,
I have to keep my guards up and expectations low.
Even so,
I get swept off my feet oh so easily
Careful Jane,
Nothing lasts forever.

" If"

Occasionally,
It takes another to point out something you don't see.
Occasionally,
It takes another to instill hope back in your eyes.
Occasionally,
It takes another to give you the courage to do something.

But sometimes,
You don't want to see.
Sometimes
You don't want to hope.
Sometimes,
You don't want the courage.

Ultimately it just takes "ME" to make a change.
And "IF" is the challenge.
I'm getting there.
Despite the overflowing "What If's"
I'm getting there.
=)

Eagle Eye Cherry - Save Tonight ish awesome!

More Than 2?

Life's always about choices,
It's either this or that,
But really are there only 2 choices?
I wonder,
If you try to make a 3rd option,
Would it be worth it?
Or would you just simply get pushed back into the original 2 options?
Is it better?
Well who's to say?
Me?
I'm neither on the 1st path nor the 2nd,
Guess i'm making a 3rd path then.
=)

The Night That Replays.

Cygnus Loop

Blinding lights,
Loud echoing music,
Happy faces,
People dancing,
Each beat makes my soul shake,
Little by little,
I find myself tearing,
And that fake smile returns.

Those memories still come back to haunt me.
The scene,
All too familiar,
Still too vivid.
Still thinking i could have done something to change the past,
Still wondering what i did wrong,
Still regretting,
Still searching for the reason.
Still...
Still...

I tilt my head back,
Forcing my eyes to swallow those tears,
I close my eyes.
But no tears fall,
And i know for sure now,
I'll be alright.

K pop?

It's freaking 12AM and you have a test in 2 days time, what do you do? YOU WATCH K POP WITH YOUR BROTHER FOR ONE AND A HALF HOURS!!! Cause i'm just awesome like that =D
Till i come back with something more worth reading. Goodnight?

Oh OH on a side note i finally got me mom to give a thumbs up to a dude outfit for a party!!! AWEZOUUMMMEEEE!!!!! yeah! take that white shirt, vest, pants and converse F YEAH!!! only thing i can't get is a spiked up mohawk fish...

The yearnings returned but much controlled
*pats own head* i ish proud of meself. XD

Funny Events.

As i've said before, the turn out of events are indeed humorous. It's like a dream or more of a blast from the past but whatever it is, it is and will unmistakeably be the highlight of my day. It doesn't work the same way as it used to but it still trots along the same lines. Thinking about it makes me laugh each time, is this wrong? Well i guess there are times where for just those moments, you push reason and rationality aside and enjoy what's set out in front of you. Let the moment happen and although reality is just around the corner it's better to have enjoyed the moment than to have not had it at all. Let the thinking come later, as it always does. After all i did today just tell someone to not let an opportunity slip by, so why should i? Not opportunities for something more but just for the sake of memories. Tonight the world that i turned gray seemed to have been splashed with the old vibrant colors that make me feel new. And i am happy =)