Calmed Heart.

I don't get it,
What is it about you that calms all my storms just like a soothing breeze?
My heart that was before unfocused turns relieved when I talk to you.
We talk about things that tear my heart to bits and yet...
I feel happy.

It's a strange mixture indeed,
Like drinking alcohol,
Tastes horrible but that warm feeling you get stays within.
Maybe that bittersweet feeling I've been having has finally turned sweeter.
I'd like to think of it that way.

I know I still love you,
But I know you love her so.
And I guess that makes the equation that is me, right.
I'm still confused as to why you're so important to me.
Perhaps you were my first love,
I don't know yet.

In time I'll see more clearly,
In time I'll learn to not want to need you.
In time I'll change "I LOVE you" to "I LOVED you".
Just watch me.
=)

the Light ahead

Silent Wondering.

Lonely was the heart that was abandoned,
Waiting patiently yet frantically for a sign.
Silently wondering where you are,
To where have you disappeared to?
Have you chosen to leave without saying a word?
Did you decide to place me in an old box called the past?
Or am I simply wondering too much in silence?
I miss you,
But I won't tell you so.
I'll just continue with my silent wondering.
=)

I've gotta say goodbye, to the pieces of me that have already died.

Listening to : Ingrid Michaelson - Ghost

That empty seat

Scott Pilgrim!!

I am so so stuck on a song from Scott Pilgrim Vs The World!!!! Clash at Demonhead - Black Sheep. Farging nice song Wei!!!!! The movie was even more brilliant, definitely a top loved movie.

Side note : I am now observing how the cookie crumbles. They say that's just how it is, I hope they're right but.... I hope they're not. I will know in due time... Time.... I need someone to point me to the exit. =)

-Send you my love on a wire, lift you up every time, everyone, ooh... pulls away, ooh... FROM YOUUU!!!!!!-

Arrow in the sky

Friends?

Need more distractions in my life. Uni alone isn't enough yet, well... Classes haven't started so it technically doesn't count right? Sigh.... Occasionally I have these thoughts whereby I question my role as a friend. I often don't keep in contact with people that matter unless I like the person, like like like the person, do I make sense? Hahahaha

Anyway, I don't bother contacting or even just giving a simple hi to the people I used to hang out with. Then I begin to wonder, would people still remember me? Let alone call me a friend? It disturbs me occasionally how I can not care. I blame the fact that I ding have any freedom, but really that's my own fault isn't it?

That's probably the same reason why I lost. Sigh..... I'll just have to live with that and hope that I'll get over it soon.

Lately I've become lady sighs-a-lot. Sigh....goodnight =)

More and more words that I wished I had said, would say, should say....still want to say. Someone slap me hard...

Words, words, words

2 Thing On My Mind.

Been cleaning the house up big time, found a lot of old funny things that I will not mention here. Anyway what's on my mind is.... What do I do? An idea can never stop growing and now I'm pretty freaked. I was a fool not to see so here's the price I must pay? I don't know, too many things unknown. Sigh.....

On a side note, found this awesomely depressing line from a book.

"Burned beneath my eyelids is an image of the two of you together. And with that I cannot sleep."

Where do I get such depressing reading material? Anyway.... Did you just reply me? It has been a while hasn't it? I wish you would acknowledge my existence but then I don't as well. I'm still pretty much stuck =)

Edited photo, i don't have them skydiver blue chucks but i want em

Original photo

Blood & Uni.

3rd day of uni was ok, getting to know all the people from psych, rather pleasant bunch of people. Having zaidah here makes my days even more fun cause well.... WE CPU-IANS!!!!!! And we awesome and that's that. Oh went for a blood test today and saw the strangest thing that can happen when blood gets drawn if your blood vessels too close to your skin (your blood kinda just pours out the moment the needle is administered into your body and when the needle is extracted) and I was like woah!! Course it wasn't on me hahahaha anyway pics below =D

me & Zaidah foolin around

"battle scars"

before Zaidah demanded a camwhoring with her's XD

Accessories.

Having a crazy urge to buy all the accessories. Feather earrings, chokers, long dangly necklace, big ass rings, little bracelets and the list goes on. Thank god I can rationalise with myself or I'd be broke by now.

On a side note - you've found a way back into my mind. GTFO please?

Got these star earrings, next thing is feather earrings!

Star Earrings! <3