Freedom Ends.

Freedom ends.
NOOOOOOO..........!!!!! Aw man.... i can't believe time flew by so fast when i was having fun. Ah well good things aren't meant to last. Yesterday I went for the July Intake Party that i technically wasn't going to go to but kinda did cause well it's be the last time presumably for me to go crazy and stay out late for a very long time, and well....the crowd kinda sucked balls HAHAHAHAHA pfft! Malaysian crowds...dey no nou how tou parteh! *chinese accent*

What happened to the fun people of my generation? Not to be like super cocky and say we were awesome and all but compared to these newbies...WE KINDA ARE!!! These raw meats are quiet and all having their heads shoved up their techy asses. *If you're wondering, no i am not angry when i say all of this, just superbly puzzled and bizzared.* They're not fun or crazy or easy to get with, i'm not saying they're horrible people or anything they're just not fun. And personally that's just SAD! But ah well...life goes on right?

Anyway...we performed the songs Rocketeer - Far East Movement and Price Tag - Jessie J. Went pretty well i think... i think....hmm.... hahahahaha. Went to Club 9 after....one of the few weirdest things for me sigh... not my scene at all. Had great dinner well sorta, minus the panicking, thanks Dickson, again hahahahaha. Aaaaaaand the life of a prisoner starts in about...30 hours from now sigh.....

On a totally unrelated note I got stuck watching Teen Wolf...yeah.....call me a hypocrite cause when the trailers were flashing i was like "SHIT! ANOTHER ONE OF THESE CORNY THINGS?" then.....boredom got the better of me and i now find my self helplessly drooling over the main character TYLER POSEY!!!!! GYAH~~~~~ (pics below) Tell me that's not hot. Either that or i'm sucker for guys with nice smiles shit!!!! Anyway i'm out for now =)

Insane Days + A Lil On The Inside.

So the past 2 weeks have ranged from AWESOME to AWESOME to AWESOME to AWESOME to AWESOME~~~*magical music in the background*

Firstly....
Parents have been gone for what? 16 days now? I mean i'm not psyched that they aren't here, i'm just uberly happy for the freedom i get. Like my freedom meter went totally KABOOM!!!!! from -78% skyrocketing to 98% FUCK YEAH!!!! and yes i realize i just swore, my apologies but HECK YEAH!!!!! I'm freaking overjoyed here. Freedom never tasted so gooooood!!!!! I mean yeah now i have my limits due to transportation and going out with friends is still a tad bit weird but staying back till after 7 is really the dream! Yes i live a sad sad life don't judge me. This topped my list of all great things i mean without the freedom the fun could have never happened! I REJOICE!!!!

Secondly...
Been really really involved in LIVE. (thanks to FREEDOM!!!) Stay backs on mainly Thursdays but you know with the Talent Show coming up and all the practices have been more frequent so technically it's Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays & Fridays <-- CAN YOU FREAKING BELIEVE THIS?!?!?!?! Yes, I am very hyper ok.... I don't think i can post up the songs we're doing cause well...you know.... well i don't know i think i'm not allowed and whats not secret hush hush deals. Practices are really funny and insane, we have our "serious" practice our songs and choreo moments which tend to get more and more intense when closing Talent Show rehearsals and we have our sing in a group like a bunch of hobos moments hahahhaha. But most of the time...we're insane like mad (insert profanity)s. Or maybe it's just me? *shrugs* I don't give a beeswax! I now have
1. The original LIVE gang : Dickson, Susu, Peter, Joy, Amanda & YinYing (38).
2. The superbly & insanely gutter minded gang : Sheryl & Jojo
3. The Ramly idiots : Ray, Wei Khong.
4. The rest of them people. yeah....
If that wasn't crazy enough, the car rides home are insanely epic! Well LIVE members live all over the place and in ridiculously far & jam packed areas like USJ, Damansara, KEPONG!!! Huiyo.... it takes me 2 or 3 hours just to get home, i mean seriously? If it weren't for the interesting conversations, awesome taste in music and endless supply of stand up comedies i think i'd probably increase my insane-o-meter. So thank you Dickson =D

Thirdly...
World Issues conference is getting closer (November 12th), been opening up the booth at the ECA ground floor selling conference tickets and WI t-shirts and cupcakes.....CUPCAKES!!!! THEY SHO AWESOME!!!!! seriously they were. Help do the icing for the big cupcakes which was fun!!! ended up melting a plastic spoon though hahahahah to be expected right? Planning to get some lollipops to sell at the booth...but depends on how things go, i mean the movie screenings were a flop sigh.... but ah well at least i have an 86% average!! But i only have one subject...so...yeah...hmmm..... WELL i can brag about getting 81% for a presentation i finished in 4 hours and about 2 hours before the actual presentation. Yeah i work well for procrastinated work =D

Insider...
Things seem almost to be as if nothing has changed, i mean there are still weird moments but yeah shrug it off is all i do. I find it really easy to just hang out now but sometimes we have nothing to converse about, but i'm cool with that. I don't think it works likewise though...there are so many things happening and so many things i'm hearing and they sometimes turn pretty solid and that's scary for me cause i never saw it that way. I still don't but my guard is partially up. If it's a wall it has a horrible foundation cause well....there's trust....I don't think i should but i do, i really do. Sigh....if only i knew what the minds of others are filled with, even just for a week, i'd like to know. I hope everything turns out well, maybe my thoughts are skewed by my own wishes or maybe i just worry too damn much but i hope everything plays out fine. Thats all i want, thats possible for now.

Good Night. =)

Chutes & Ladders.

Why does everything seem like it's going back to square one?
Maybe life's just a game of chutes and ladders.
Just well....they're more chutes than ladders in this "game".
Maybe the key to winning's not rolling for ladders.
Maybe all it takes is to start on a whole new game.
But isn't that the same as quitting?
But life's not about winning now is it?
I'll continue to roll the dice.
I just hope i'm not playing a one player game.
I can always finish the game alone,
But what fun is there when you're the only one falling through the chutes?
Play this game we call life with me.
I'll wait for you to finish the game no matter how many times you get chutes.
When you're not alone,
It makes rolling the dice and putting everything to chance just a lil more worthwhile don't you think?
So sit down and roll the dice with me,
I'll try to help you through.
But only if you let me.
Then it'll be you, me and a board of chutes & ladders.

Stars & Existence.

Just one of those nights where it's just me, Coldplay, and my memories.
I feel like climbing out onto the roof and just lie down.
Just count the stars and pull one memory for every one star i count.
Then i'll realize that my memories will run out before i finish counting the stars.
And there'd be nothing left.
Just an empty mind and shell looking up at an endless stretch of beautiful tombstones.
Nothing lasts.

Stars kinda remind me of memories.
A shine is all it leaves behind once it dies.
A magnificent explosion of colors. Breathtaking.
And that travels far and wide and stays printed on our skies.
But eventually, that will fade.
Who'll remember the star that disappeared?
No one.
And what of the planets that have not died?
Who cares about them?
What does it mean to exist when one day it will be as if we have not.
Such insignificant things we are.

Yet we go on trying to carve ourselves into existence.
Yes. Hope.
Perhaps that is all the proof we have that we exist.
Not to anyone else, but to ourselves.
We hope to exist and to matter.
And we do.

Undesired Mystery.

Why is everything like this now?
All shrouded in undesired mystery.
It was never like this,
Guess there's an age for everything?
Somewhere deep down i felt that disappointed twist in my heart,
"No way" is all that comes to mind,
But it is not impossible after all.
I wish things were written in black & white and on everyone's face,
At least then i can be like "IN YOUR FACE YOU PHONY!!".
So so many things pile up in the "I don't know" corner of my mind,
Won't it ever disappear?
Sigh...

P.s - This is not a heartbreak post =D

I Wanna Be Superman. =)

What's a knight in shining armor to you? Is it suppose to be someone in some fancy suit with a weapon in hand ready to fight away all your fears? Would that person be your guardian angel when everything around you crumbles? Or would that person be a secret hero always acting behind the scenes to make you happy?

We all somewhat want our own "savior/hero". I know i do, it's pretty immature thinking but heck it'd be nice wouldn't it? The feeling of being protected and cared for... And although i keep a look out for my own Man of Steel, deep down...

I want to be someone's superman too. =)
Is that too strange?

Lies & False Accusations.

Lies and false accusations.
Neither can be proved.
Both hold a dose of reality.
Both provide warnings for one another.
False accusations make the lies seem so real,
As does lies make false accusations seem real.
A messed up balance this is,
On a thin thread i pace on.
Both, howl like the wind,
Like wolves crazed with hunger,
Luring me with the mysteriously haunting cries.
Swaying but not flailing,
Both forces push me back and forth.
Lies make me believe in false accusations,
False accusations make me believe in lies.
This wavering balance keeps me on my toes.
What of the truth?
What truth?
There are only lies and false accusations.
Between it i tiptoe on...