Letters?

I'm thinking of writing some letters? I don't know, I'm just so lazy, but I really must finish off what I had started. Sigh.... I'll start soon? =b

I Wanna.

A song that just won't leave my head.

P.s - I don't know how to work up the courage to just tell you to pass this thing I have to her. I don't want to end up never giving what I had planned to give, in a sense, I don't want to keep it with me. It gives me a reason to keep wanting to see you. And that is just sad and twisted. Ah gosh! I need to man up! And fast!

A Vow.

So basically this is a short one inspired by the movie "The Vow" which i just watched with me Uni mates, Zaidah, Shreas & Yashi. Don't worry, I won't put up any spoilers here.....well other than the vows that struck me to type up this post. =) Watch it, it's a relatively good movie. Overall 8/10 from me.

"I vow to help you love life, to always hold you with tenderness and to have the patience that love demands. To speak when words are needed and to share the silence when they are not. To agree to disagree on Red Velvet Cake, and to live within the warmth of your heart and always call it home."

"I vow to fiercely love you in all your forms, now and forever. I promise to never forget that this is a once in a lifetime love. I vow to love you, and no matter what challenges might carry us apart, we will always find a way back to each other."

A vow. 

A promise. 

An act signifying commitment. 

Such a strong and beautiful thing it is. 

At the thought of these 2 words, one thinks of marriage and of the rituals involved. 

But can't a vow be something simple? 

Remove the wedding bells and the rings. 

Get rid of the holy man and the crowd. 

Push aside all external distractions and the need to impress.

Leave out all but yourself and ask yourself,
"Do you love this person in front of you?"
If the only answer is "Yes."
Then that is the only vow you'll ever need.
=)

I didn't what the usual 2 rings looking magical crap.
So i just mixed it with my Converse fetish. =D
Kudos to the photographer.

Please, Just Tell Me.

Had that awesome hype of talking to many people at once. I know.... loser much. hahahahahaha!

As always you surprise me when you do talk to me, for some reason I always assume you'll never talk to me again. I really want to apologize to you, but I can't say this to you directly. I'm sorry for not initiating any conversations with you, I truly am. It's just that, I've always been the one to start before, guess I just don't want to be hurt anymore, neither do I want you to think of me as an annoyance.

I still smile like an idiot when you talk to me, but know that those feelings are not as strong as they used to be. No. Perhaps they are still strong, but I've just come to accept and let go of that past we had. I can't explain it, but it feels different-ish? *shrugs & smiles*

But one thing though, I loved to talk to you because we never held anything back from each other. Maybe you see it as a private matter, if so then I understand. But if you're not telling me simply because you're worried that it may hurt me in any way, please don't worry. I could be wrong, but I'm pretty sure it's her. You can just tell me straight out, really don't worry. I'd rather be hurt than lied to or hidden from. But I won't be hurt anymore. So please, just tell me, there's no need to hide anything. =)

I've already accepted =)

Assumptions And The Obvious.

How can you differentiate between one person just being him/herself and if one person is actually going out of their way to catch your attention?

Actions are, obviously not as clear as words. They leave too big a gap for misinterpretations & assumptions. But sometimes, that action expresses an intent and or emotion that is clear as day.

The fear & embarrassment of making the wrong assumptions Vs The fear & regret of letting an obvious message pass by. This has always been a major conflict within those who are as I would put it "emotionally interested" in another. How do we know for sure that there is "chemistry" and the flirting process is on the go?

There is always the option of asking straight out, but I'm not one to have those kind of guts. It's as my teacher would term it - "Un-Jane". (Still have to figure out how to make myself Un-Jane). It would clarify a lot of things but surely it would cause awkwardness which is unneeded. So I'll yet again leaves life to chance.

Being "Friendly", "Too Friendly" & just plain thinking too much. I wish things were in black and white.... But then again, where would the fun be if you can't keep secrets? =)

Ps - Psychological tests are so freaking awesome!!!

Pps - Related to this post, It was something strange to me, but really who does that? Actions interpreted would show that you want me to notice you, but what if there is nothing to be interpreted? Anyway, thank you Zaidah for coming late hahahahaha! This thing's making me wear that stupid smile again. =)

A random photo =)

A Fool.

What I'd give for those few words.
Still foolish,
letting go is never easy.
But even if I got them,
what would I do with them?
I laugh at my own foolishness & greed.
I don't even know the answer to the question I want.
What a fool, what a fool.
=)

Puzzling.

I don't understand why some people remove stuff from their blogs. Is it because they realize they wrote it in a fit of rage or in a swift whirlwind of emotions and they want to take it back? I mean, are they afraid that people would stumble upon it if they read their blogs? If so why write it in the first place? Blogging can be used as an outlet for a lot of things but why take back what you want to say when all the words have already spilled out from your mouth? Puzzling indeed. Maybe, just maybe they just don't want the people who are already reading their blogs to worry? Even now you still puzzle me so.

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