That Moment.

That horrible yet funny moment when the person you likes asks you about a quote you put on your personal message bubble that's relates to "love". I don't know if I should be overjoyed or just roll down laughing. So I'm on a Mindy Glenhill loop and one of the songs called "All The Pennies" had a line like this.

"Could not make me love you any better"

And it's stuck in my head so I put that as my status then it happens. "Love who?" you ask. Sometimes....I wonder if you're waiting for me to say you just to throw you off la. Sometimes I feel like messing with you by saying "You", but I still am not that crazy yet...YET. Maybe I should!

But on a side note : I'm beginning to wonder, can you like a stranger? I mean I'm starting to see that I never got to know you much. And that's scary cause... shouldn't I know? Pfft...women thoughts.... 

Oh boobs!

That funnily awkward but still more funny moment when you notice the guy you're talking to looks from your face then down then up again then down. 

Oh boobs, the things you do.

Detached.

Is it too mean to want to severe all ties with people you used to know and or were even considered "close" to? Ever get that feeling where you see some person pop up on your conversation list and you just roll your eyeballs and pray to god they don't talk to you? I hate having those feelings, it just spells asshole all over me. Not saying or denying the fact that I am, just wish that I didn't have to think that way.

Often times I see other people have gatherings and meetings with their old friends from primary, high school, college and I begin to wonder, where the hell are my friends from then? I'm not sure if I'm really trouble by the thought of not having good, old friends or just puzzled by why I do what I do. In all honesty, I'd love to keep friends close but on the other hand I just don't have much faith in humanity in the sense that you never know who you're with, everyone is rotten at the core. What to do? What to do?

Brain jam.

Crazy Week.

It's a hectic hectic week, and it gets worse next week. God, finals and coming up and I feel like I haven't learned anything. THIS.IS.BAD. On a lighter note, according to Sandra Bem's gender schema theory i am very much masculine...... hahahahahahaahahaha! The epic part was i was more manly than one dude in my class! Ah.... good times good times. Hmm.... there were some other things i wanted to talk about, but Research Methods has wiped my brain clean. Oh no, Oh no..... I need to organize my time better.

P.s - Is it wrong for me to wonder about what you're doing?
P.p.s - Then I begin to wonder, who is it exactly that I miss, the boy I like or my best friend. =/ ---> =D

How Long Is Forever?

Lately I've been really addicted to DC Comics, Marvel and anything that has Batman & Robin in it. It's so interesting how some people can create stories and characters, I can't help but be mesmerised by these artists. And the art, the details, artists are truly truly amazing.

"How long is forever?"

This title is based on time travelling episodes from Teen Titans. And for some reason this quote is stuck in my head. I do wonder why. There's nothing special about it but it makes me smile. Maybe it's because it shows me that every small thing now will affect the future. Also that so many things will be different in the future even if we plan it. I'm so fascinated with how time and choices are closely intertwined.

P.s - Lately I have the urge to smile all the time. =)

Earth Hour Candle

Hypnosis Realization.

Throughout this post is will be using the parenthesis a lot, for those of you who don't know what that it is, it's these thingies ( "  " ). YAY! You learned something new! Anyway, the reason for using the parenthesis is because I'm not sure if I actually went through that state or if it was what she had wanted us to experience or is it the right term for what happened. Yeah.... TO THE STORY!

What do you know about hypnosis? Right now you're probably thinking of some corny dude who's swinging his pocket watch back and forth in front of you or the psychopath who's using the clicking sounds of a clock to control your mind, but nah it ain't anywhere close! It's actually.... Rather funny? Hahahahahaha! Add a dash of realization in there as well.

So thing was, me and my psycho mates decided that we would like to be hypnotised to make us want to study more. Yeah I can only wish right? I still don't know if it worked, I'm starting to doubt it cause I'm sitting here glued to Glee hahahahaha! So the interesting part is how my teacher "put us under". So first we have to relax totally and she "guides" us by telling us what we should feel and see. It goes from feeling each breath we take, then loosen our shoulders, back, legs and the whole body.

After "total relaxation", it turned to going to somewhere we loved, I........ ended up on a random beach, and I was thinking "I don't love beaches.... But ok.....I'll just see where this goes". But fine, I did use the sound of waves to calm and relax me, so technically that would explain why I was there. Then she asked to us to explore around, I felt like I was tracking through the Amazon forest! I don't know why! But my mind is weird like that, I don't "not love" forests, but it wouldn't be the favorite place in the world!

Next thing she tells us is, we see a chair. A chair meant only for us in this "world" of ours. And guess what chair came into my head? Of all the chairs.......mine was a chair at the freaking barber shop. This time, I smack my head and go "WHADDAFARK?! A BARBERS CHAIR? REALLY?". It was all metal rimmed with slight red cushions......I think my mind's a real screwed up place, cause really? How is that a relaxing chair?

About this point I just about had enough of letting my brain roam freely, I decided that directing my thoughts to aid my relaxation wouldn't hurt. Chillax, it was all good. =D I thought of chairs, of all the chairs or places I've sat, where was the most relaxing, the one that could make me feel totally myself and nothing but happy. I ended up in the front seat of a Kancil...... Yeah..... I swear I didn't plan for it to happen but that scene stuck with me and soon after I fell asleep, which by the way was what my teacher had hoped to achieve.

After we woke up from the "trance", I was so baffled at how much those times had affected me. And even though those days will never return, I'm glad I had them. I'm starting to not regret more and more things from the past and instead finding myself smiling like a total idiot most of the time. Looks like the turbulence has finally started to die down for real eh? =)

P.s - I is handsome aren't I? Hahahahaha!

No Title Needed.

Idiot. *shakes head with a smile*