What Am I Doing?

You'll be one of the few things that can make me wince.
Still are one of the things that can make me sink when i'm about to float. 
I still try to find the signs... 
but who am i kidding? 
I should really make my own sign, 
"  EXIT"
I'm still trying.. still trying.

But tell me,
How do i write that sign?
When in my heart,
All I want to do is ask you if you're alright,
Always..always.
But i won't ask you,
No, never again.
I've given up,
I can't bring myself to try anymore.

Because it doesn't matter,
After all,
You wouldn't do the same.
Would you now?


What am i doing?
I don't understand once more.