Guilt Solved.

It's true, cutting short hair wasn't entirely an impulsive move. But somehow, I like the look of it so maybe I'm keeping if this way? Depends on how my long hair would turn out. So don't worry, I'm not that kind of person. =)

Guilt?

"It makes me feel guilty when you say that"

And now these words echo in my mind. I don't understand what? What do you mean? And why? I think I'm finding excuses to not find out what you mean. But I think I really should?

Song for the night : The Civil Wars - Poison & Wine

Oh I don't love you, but I always will.

Nightmares. T.T

Why is it that I've been having more and more nightmares lately? Last night I had a dream whereby I was being chased by a small black snake in my own house. Felt like an eternity!

But the scariest one of all was the one where I dreamt I woke up and saw someone, unsure if it was a young girls or an old lady in front of me, trying to reach out and touch me. Shit Wei......

Creepy old lady from Insidious

Ok...... now I'm gonna be freaked out to just open my blog thanks to this pic.....

Teen Wolf.

Largely noted, Teen Wolf makes me feel like a total girl. Trolololololol! So much sexy in that show!

Crystal look-a-like I mish meh cat!!!!!

Left.

I hadn't known..... I should have asked, but everything has already happened and somehow, I feel relieved? No more like I don't feel the change. Guess that's good in its own way.

Have a safe trip. I'll talk to you soon? =)

Nutella bun baked with <3

Nothing Good Happens After 2am.

That awkward moment where your mom catches you playing dress up at 2am........... Oh god why?

Yes. I do like to try on clothes and piece together cosplay/anime like outfits on very very rare occasions OKAY! Geez....... Don't remember the last time I did something like this. And just when my mom thinks I'm all dude in and out, she catches me doing this....... *grunts*

Gonna force myself to sleep in embarrassment now......

Anime version of DC chicks.
From left : Supergirl, Powergirl, Wondergirl, Zatanna, Batgirl.

Undecided.

I'm gonna regret not soon anything, I think. Problem is if I do something? What difference would it make?

Then suddenly I remember, what I think is special treatment is just what you do with everyone else. Hate it when the heart clouds the mind. Tik tok tik tok, time is running out.

P.s - I can't imagine someone saying this to me *scroll down*

"You've been waiting all this time?"

Passing Marks.

Partially jumping for joy cause now I know for sure that I've PASSED! YES!!!! Then I realise I don't know my proper results and now I'm having that sick feeling in my stomach, oh god, what if my results are bad? My mother is going to kill me!

I know most people would be happy with a "pass" but no, not my mother. Well who can blame her for wanting her children to strive? But sometimes I'm so afraid that I can't reach her standards and gradually I stopped trying but that fear never ever disappears.

In all honesty I want to score high and be top student but I've become someone who's satisfied with just a mere pass..... Ah well, now to wait for the official results.

PASS....PASSS...PASSSSS is all i see =D

Weighing Fair and Desire.

I'm becoming more and more honest? I guess? Hahahahahahaha! If I were really honest I'd tell you everything.
P.S - "You" I was enchanted to meet you. =)

When weighing fair and desire becomes difficult.

Does one turn away or look on without speaking?

Must everything be said?

We often regret what has and has not been done.

But which one is worse?

Which one will keep us awake oh so late at night?

Wants and needs.

Wanting does not mean you need it.

But what if it was needed?

 And you simply had not realized it yet?

Decisions.

To be made.

To be said.

Time is running out.

Through these lips.

Just A Thought.

I don't know if you know this but, I'll always stay up or wake up just for you. I'm a foolish person, I know. Its the only few times that I let myself be. *shrugs*

Different.

Double finally posted this draft XD Finally got to blog this out cause I is so lazy. =D So, a few nights back I had a weird weird WEIRD chat at 3am. Good god, the shit we talk about *smacks head repeatedly* =) Not gonna put up the details cause well.......... Uh........ It's just too weird hahahahahahaha

ANYWAY...... After like almost an hour of weird we decide to call it a night. Then you call me again, and now those words constantly echo in my head.

"You're different"

You've told me this before, but never this straightforward. I don't know if it's a compliment or are you just trying to mock me. That lingering question resurfaced once more, " If I am really so different, why didn't you choose me?" But I'm also well aware, being different doesn't make you special, it's still not enough.

Ah well..... Some questions will never be answered and it's best left that way. =) I'm fine with how we are now. I guess? =D

P.s - I will wait for 6 years! Hmph! Don't underestimate my control. =)

Yeah....

So I was a little crazy with the previous post. mm hmmm..... Yeah...... Eh heh..... Right..... * looks awkwardly around*

What Ifs & What Then.

I don't understand why, even if I don't have that feeling I used to have, I'm still...... Easily wounded by the thought of "what if?"

What if I had done something back then?

What if I had been more daring?

What if I had more freedom?

What if I had made a move before she did?

What if it was me not her?

What if,

What if?

What ifs'.

Too many what ifs' still stay within my mind. But then it dawns on me, what about the "what then" part of the equation?

If I had gotten you, what then?

If we were together now, what then?

If you had chosen me over her, what then?

What then?

What changes?

And it's these thoughts that calms my storms. Because I can't think of how things would change, so why ponder on the "what ifs'" if you can't see a solution for "what then".

But still, seeing you happy makes me wish I was her and seeing her happy makes me wish I was her.

P.s - Gotta get over this! Being a bloody girl here!

How I see the sky =)