I Have A Monster in My House

"Say that one more time"
That line echoes in my ears,
Like sharp claws wrapping around my throat.

"Say that one more time"
Each word falls off your tongue,
Like stale death and poison.

"Say that one more time"
Breath foul of hate and fear,
A putrid soul beneath the cowl of the beast.

You terrorize and instill fear to all including your kin,
You do not see that you create disgust with your hands.
You think so highly of yourself,
But you do not see the little child that resides within.
A "5-year old prick" that's what I called you,
You sought to harm with such a simple taunt,
You are nothing but a coward.

That's why you hide behind your big appearance,
And learn martial arts,
And get involved with crime.
You think it's so cool that you're termed the "bad ass",
But the bitter truth is,
You're so afraid of being intimidated that you've lost sight of what you should be.
You criticise others but you don't see,
you don't see.....

You are a hypocrite,
Pathetic,
Weak,
Fearful,
Despised,
Stupid.
You are all the things you've feared to be.
But you do not see.

"Say that one more time"
I dare not gaze upon this monster before me,
He is not my brother,
But a horrid creature that will not hesitate to remove me of breath.

Mother once said you have love in your heart,
She was wrong.
One who loves should never make the ones they love fear you.
And now,
I fear you.

"5-year old prick"

Today. Well Actually Yesterday.

Nope. Nope. Just nope. I am done with this. Really. Don't need this shit. At all. Just. Freaking. No. Ugh.... Whateves man. I'm done.

P.s : I now blog the same way I write Tumblr tags hahahhahaha!

Note

Hello blog. I is stressed. I has loads of work to do. Yet I is here.... Because it makes sense to procrastinate right? NO CURRRRR!!!!!!

"Weirdly attractive"

That's new, I can work with that. 

Answers.

When you can't figure out what's wrong, you actually know the answer.

It's all there, in your head.

Just depends if you want to acknowledge it.

Take a little time, 

Question yourself,

Understand the choices you've made,

You'll find what you're looking for.

Be it the the enlightening truth,

Or a feared darkness.

Embrace it, stand tall, fear nothing,

Use your gifts and monsters to rule the world.

Random Shizz.

Teen Wolf directors, I simply love you guys. Season 3 has been great so far, not so much on the storyline but how you guys set up the interactions between the characters. I'm just addicted. Plus I find Daniel Sharman increasingly attractive, god dammit sweet puppy face!

Rain, Tears, Pain.

It's cliche to cry in the rain,

But sometimes,

When you can't cry,

Rain falls on your cheek and turn to tears,

It somewhat feels like the sky is crying for us,

But who am I kidding?

No one would cry for us,

They can only represent a fraction of our emotions.

So let us drown in the rain,

It doesn't help,

But somehow it makes us feel understood.

Rain won't wash away our pain,

But with it,

Maybe we'll accept our pain,

And live with it.

The Puppeteers Puppet

I am a puppet,

I dance to the song sang by others,

And play out the stories they tell.

I am pulled and manipulated by the puppeteers we call society,

By the people I say I love.

You glee at the sight of me mindlessly following your every instruction,

A sick sense of accomplishment with each string you pull,

Endlessly abusing your control over me,

Making me pirouette deeper in a building sea of hate.

I dance for you,

I move for you,

You give me life.

But I am not without soul, without thought, without heart,

I am alive.

Your craze for control makes sure I am never heard,

You bind me with endless strings,

Demands, wishes, requests, obligations, regret, respect, guilt.

I suffocate under your rule,

Unable to break free or speak up in defence.

You make me feel small and powerless,

When in truth without me you have no show.

So you bind me,

From seeing,

From speaking,

From being me.

Until all I am,

Is a faceless wooden puppet,

Moving along to your every whim,

In silence,

Broken,

And trapped,

For all eternity.