Detached?

And it feels normal again, strange...
Even so, deep down i still believe it's temporary.
It's no doubt enjoyable,
But i can't afford to give it as much as i had before.
What am i doing i ask,
I don't really know what i'm doing i say,
Does it matter?
Yes and no.
I'm re-reading this and it feels like i'm talking about having sex with someone hahahahahaaha
But back to the topic,
Can i really just live the moment?
Or should i think further than what my eyes allow me to?
Be detached.
I used to do it so well,
And i must do it again.
For me. For me.